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To Be Human

Crossing The Line—Lance Armstrong

January 21, 2013 by fpdorchak

The Short Step That Takes You So Far....
The Short Step That Takes You So Far….

I get it.

I get why he did what he did.

That doesn’t mean I agree with it…I just…understand it.

It is the win-at-all-costs competitive attitude. The razor-sharp focused goal.

Being in the game.

The “level playing field.”

The fact that he didn’t realize how “big” it had all gotten.

When you have a dream, when you’re competitive and have a laser-like focus on something…everything else in life can easily be eclipsed. Ignored. Life can be effortlessly…warped. And when you’re a top athlete…it’s easy to get even more immersed in not only the game…but the concept of the game. The Zen of your single-minded desire. And all your coaches telling you you’re superhuman, unbeatable, the best in the world. Add steroids to the all the trouble, and you create even more of a Bull-in-the-China-shop. Make you more aggressive. Forceful personalities with a goal? Just get out of the goddamned way. You’re either an obstacle to be not just overcome—but decimated—or you’re part of the team. Those are the only two options.

Then throw in some character flaws. Everything above is immediately magnified.

Any analysis of Lance Armstrong and people like him would take far more than a mere blog post (or, is easy, depending on your point of view and whether or not you believe in “black and white” or “shades of gray”), but the Oprah interview of Mr. Armstrong had me riveted. It always fascinates me when criminals get caught and talk about their motivation calmly and oh, so matter-of-factly. Openly. I don’t agree one bit with his actions, but I see them all the time in über-driven people. I’m a driven guy, goal oriented, used to compete in sports. I know the mindset—though I never practiced it to the extreme Lance and others have. I was never willing to screw someone else over to get ahead, and never took any “performance enhancing” drugs, though I had been asked, once, if I wanted to take steroids as I trained for my one and only powerlifting competition during college. They weren’t illegal when I was asked, but I didn’t take them because I wanted to see what I could do on my own. I never blood doped, but I see the allure. Living at over a mile in altitude, every time I go to sea level I was like Superman! I could run forever, squat 415 pounds like it was nothing. Same difference, though the effect wears off once your body acclimatizes to your surrounds. But having the “extra” read blood cells in my body at altitude, then coming down to breath thicker air—oh, yeah, intoxicating how powerful and unstoppable you are.

It’s easy to lose yourself in the game if you don’t keep your head on straight. If you tell yourself you will do anything to win. To win at all costs.

I believe Mr. Armstrong should be penalized, but I also don’t think it should be for life. Yes, he was a bully, was brutal and aggressively attacked all who attacked him—but that’s the Alpha-Male/Female syndrome. Drive forward, decimate opponents, win medals. All else means nothing. Armstrong is no different than many others out there. And I’d argue that any sport instills a similar “culture” of winning on all who participate. Doesn’t make it right, and it needs to be stopped. Sports seem to have evolved into all about winning. Everything else is secondary. Think of one area in particular that arguably seems to have more than its share of honest-to-God criminals in its ranks.

And, maybe, since he was also a philanthropist, it makes everything worse. People question his motives. Here, he was giving so much to organizations that help people, yet behaving as he was “behind the curtain.” Lied, cheated, bullied, and trafficked in drugs. Messed with other people’s lives.

Very few people are perfect. Some crimes more heinous than others. But what seems most important, here, is the growth of the individual, the Lance Armstrong, whether or not any of the rest of us believe him. His atonement for his wrongs. He as to come to terms with himself, he has to fix himself. He says he takes total responsibility and he appeared open and genuine in the interview, even expressed some opinions I’m sure didn’t help him any, but he appears to have finally realized what he’d done, who he’d wronged, and that he has along road ahead of him (pardon the unintended pun). Actions speak louder than words, so we will see if the therapied, humbled, and heavily reworked Lance Armstrong does as his words portrayed. But I don’t think he should be banned for life. Out of his life, came much good with the bad, and if he truly reforms himself, then he should be allowed a second chance. Most people should be allowed a second chance in life.

That…is my humble opinion.

Filed Under: To Be Human Tagged With: Blood Doping, Cycling, EPO, Ethics, Lance Armstrong, Level playing field, Oprah, Sport

ASETNIOP–A Techno-Alternative To QWERTY

January 12, 2013 by fpdorchak

Filed Under: Technology, To Be Human, Uncategorized, Writing Tagged With: ASETNIOP, iPads, New Typing System, QWERTY, Typing

Reviewers, Critics, and Literati

January 11, 2013 by fpdorchak

English: Human figure with thought bubbles
What are YOU thinking? (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Recently, I’d read a post about critics, and it kinda struck a nerve. Though I had a bit to say in my comments, I’d not discoursed on my thoughts about the need for critics. I thought it, too, might take of a bit of time, then, yesterday, thought, huh, why not post about it.

Much of my comments centered on the ideal versus the practiced. In practice I’ve found that most critics outside of my university days seem to attack and tear down, rather than try to really understand and probe a piece of writing and its meaning (of course, that could also be a sad reflection of the state of publishing…but I’m thinking not…). Again, I admit, I’m not what I’d consider “well read.” I read a fair amount, and even widely, but I’m certainly no Marc Schuster. Now, I have no literary degrees (B.S. in Physics with an astronomy emphasis; minor in German, though was one class shy of a dual minor, in Philosophy), am largely self-taught in the world of writing, but I have a reasoning, critical mind. Though I never “used” my degree in the outside world, it taught me something most valuable:  critical thinking.

Okay, it taught me all kinds of theory and cool, astronomical stuff, but it also taught me how to think.

And all the philosophy courses I took also honed my critical facilities, though, in truth I must admit that I’ve always been one to take up a discussion and debate my way in, around, and out of paper (and plastic!) bags. I love discussion. Love thinking. In high school, one of my nicknames was “the Philosopher.”

So, when it came to others foisting their unbidden opinions on me, I’ve never been one interested in them [in this respect:  which books I should read and what they’re “about”]. I felt I would make up my own mind on whatever it was I wanted to read, or watch, or listen to, and not have someone else hand me their opinion on the matter. After all, that was what book covers were for, right? I also didn’t want to be influenced by their opinion when getting into whatever it was I read or watched.

But, this is a multi-edged sword (just run with it…).

Creativity.

Creativity is rampant and part and parcel to life. Wherever there is anything, someone, or All That Is, will create a variance to said “standard.” It is the way of life. So, if someone—anyone—does anything in life, there will be another out there quick to comment. And this means for good or ill.

Time.

In an age where we all actually have the luxury of time like never before, we find ourselves inundated with ever-more leisurely pursuits. We have, perhaps the argument can be made, too many choices. So…we subcontract out. We allow others to do some or all of the work for us. Reviewers, critics, friends, Romans, and countrymen/women.

Human Nature.

It is Human Nature to look at the world and impart our perspective, our interpretation to it. You might say it is our fundamental right to do so. It is what being Human is all about. Living life. And in living life, we have to make decisions. We have to reason, conclude, interpolate, summarize, and assimilate. All this and more. It is…what Humans do.

Needs.

One might well say that “needs,” by definition, are not relative. They’re must-haves, or they’d be called, well, something else—like wants. But, in the realm of “needs,” there is the innate need to grow in whatever it is we’re doing. If we’re building a mouse trap—we strive to build a better mouse trap. Creating a book—write The Great <insert nation> Novel. But while most to many of these needs perhaps orbit around individuals, I feel there is a larger, gestalt, or en masse need of Human Nature to actually better itself. And when anyone individually does anything…it translates into or over to The Whole. Since Humanity is made up of all of us myopic individuals, how can our actions—however perceived as minute—not affect us all.

So, okay, I’ve rambled on here, but how does it all impact the need for reviewers, critics, or the literati in general?

We are not perfect. We’re Human. But, subconsciously or consciously…we try. For the most part, I argue, we mean well. When we attempt to wrap our heads around concepts, ideas, to then try to express those to others not so innately inclined, we help them to understand those same concepts. Help them to learn and to grow. In the process, we’re expressing portions of our beings “built” to do whatever it is we’re doing.

Reviewers, critics, or any other “–ati,” are expressing portions of their beings that beg for attention (not “Hollywood” attention, but “physical, in-this-moment,” Life expression). They are expressing the creativity of life itself in examining life itself, and turning that back on itself in a learning and growing capacity. Even the much ballyhooed Amazon reviewers are doing the exact same thing, “though with smaller words.”

All—each and every one of us—are trying to figure out what it means to live and to grow in our physical existence, how to best express ourselves. Now, in the process, some will come off as abrupt, condescending, arrogant. Those involve more personal learning experiences for the parties involved, whether as the instigator, direct target of a review, or as a much-removed party simply reading the review “from afar” (it will affect you—why is that? How will it? What emotions are invoked?). I do believe in the metaphysical (I studied the philosophy of religion in my university coursework, as well as on my own), and everything is tied to everything else. That’s my opinion; it doesn’t have to be yours. But when it comes to declaring whether or not critics are a necessity, you might as well debate whether or not a flower is needed.

Filed Under: Leisure, To Be Human, Writing Tagged With: Creativity, Critical thinking, Critics, Human nature, Literati, Philosopher, Philosophy, Reviewers, Thought

2013! Welcome To It and Barreling Forward!

January 4, 2013 by fpdorchak

2013. Barreling forward. (Photo: By M@rcello;-) )
2013. Barreling forward. (Photo: By M@rcello;-) )

Well.  We made it.

No Mayan Apocalypse.

No fiscal cliffs.

No um…a third thing, I need a third thing….

Okay, no third thing.

New years are cool.  So are Julys. And Decembers. But, New Years are cool. Whether or not we admit to it, I believe we all kindasortado look forward to a “starting over” of sorts. I think it’s part of being Human (so I fall a trifle short, here [I’m told], by some of my friends). I mean, at the least, the Gregorian calendar is a limited time, 365/366 days. It comes to an end every, uh, year. So, it’s only natural to look back over the course of it and relive all the good and the bad, the exhausting…and just plain be…tired. Want to take a break—start over. No harm. No foul. Just Human Nature.

My 2012 was actually a blast. Had a good share of trips, road and air. And got a great start to a new novel—a series, actually. It’s kinda turning into a Romancing The Stone-meets-The X-Files (only because I’m in Peru—in the story, not physically, as I write this post—which is soon to change; started in New York, jetted to France, ended up in Peru—again, all on paper—wish I could say I actually went to these places, but, hey—New Year!). It’s coming along actually quite well, and is taking up lots of my time (finally!). Earlier in the year it was taking a while to get things going, but now, it finally has a life of its own, and I’ve passed the 300-page/50K words mark with still plenty to write, including a bit of back filling with a cool, evil, conspiratorial sub-plot I came up with <evil, rubbing-of-hands gesture>.

Christmas and New Year’s went well, though I got sick in between. I’m not dead yet, as Monty Python is want of saying, so am near 100%.

So, leaving 2012 and barreling into 2013, I want to thank all my followers and readers! And, yes, I’m doing my best in trying to keep up with all your blog posts! The weird thing is when you select “Follow,” you actually have to, you know, read the blogs (well, you don’t really have to do anything, but that brings up moral and ethical issues, for me…). It’s like the Seinfeld episode regarding “taking” and “holding” rental car reservations. “Anyone (fingers flicking through the air) can “Follow” a blog…but the trick is in actually reading the blog…. ”

Anyway, I’m in there, so thanks for your time and your words!

Thanks to my family and friends, both virtual and in-my-face! You all make life fun and worth living! Keep things real!

Thanks to my agent. I know, it’s been a slog, but you’ve stuck with me and believe in me. I know, it’s a weird market out there, and I’ll keep the rest of my thoughts on it clean and family oriented by just stopping there.  Thanks, again, Cherry!

I’d also like to thank what I hope will be my editor-to-be (you know who you are)! Thanks for you cornering me, in April, at that conference, and talking with me about the series idea. Thanks for giving me the tracks on which to place my train (oh, no, you di’n’t! add “that” word!)-of-a-story to barrel forward (noting a trend, here?). It’s given me a new direction. Hope we can do business in the coming year. Maybe even make you a tad paranoid once you read it (the Truth is Out There).  :-]

Thanks to the Metaphysical! Thanks to All That Is (some call This “God”) and to all those nonphysical mechanics (others might term these things angels, Fate, or whatnot; I don’t believe in them [okay, maybe the “whatnot”], hence my term) hard at work behind the curtain of my life! I am appreciative to all my “other selves,” my oversoul, any “Silver Beings,” and what/whomever else is at work at creating and guiding my life, including in-this-moment, little-old-me. Thanks, self, for being you!

Thanks to anyone else I might have missed. Or did miss.

So. Think that covers things. Thanks for stopping by, hope you continue to, and hope you all have had a similarly great Holiday Season, minus the sickness (unless you were listening to Disturbed), and have a similarly outstanding new year!

2013.

Bring it.

Filed Under: Fun, Leisure, To Be Human, Writing Tagged With: 2012, 2013, Holidays, Monty Python, New Year, Romancing The Stone, Seinfeld, The X-Files

Twilight Zone Marathon—2012/2013!

December 31, 2012 by fpdorchak

Well, here it is, the day we all wait for, for many reasons!

1959 Series Logo
1959 Series Logo (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

If you’re like me, besides the day off so close to other days off, you’re checking out the DVR, test running it, giving it practice runs by recording other shows more and more, and of longer and longer duration you’re not gonna watch, only to delete them, polishing the box (make sure you lift the box and also get the top and bottoms), running diagnostics, and generally sweet talking the heck out of it, telling it how wonderfully it’s been performing for you the past year. “Flight testing” all the remotes, and hiding them (and the instruction manuals for non-remote control of the DVR) from all other family members. You might even <choking back a tear, here…> buy it a present. Like a wireless router <excuse me…I need a moment…>.

Why?

Three words:  Twilight Zone marathon, baby!

Okay, four.

Some of the best television ever. And right now, recording away are many, many DVRs. And the winners in this marathon…are the viewers (okay, and I’m sure the Serling estate and the SyFy channel).

We are all winners in this marathon. Yes, you can actually say “we’re all winners,” and not get body slammed into the nearest wall by the competitive of us. So, go ahead, there’s still time, it’s just started! Set your DVRs, Edward, you know you want to—and enjoy the run!

Just make sure to hydrate-hydrate-hydrate!

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Filed Under: Fun, Leisure, Metaphysical, Spooky, To Be Human, Writing Tagged With: New Year's Day, Seeker of Truth, Shadow & Substance, SyFy, Twilight Zone

It’s A Wonderful Life

December 24, 2012 by fpdorchak

It is a wonderful life.

Let’s not waste it.

Let’s not destroy it.

Let us all realize the impact we each have on each and everyone else.

The impact we have on things.

Let’s create the life we all say we want.

A life of peace, respect, love, and doing what we want to do. Enjoy doing. A life where we all are free to express ourselves in positive, constructive ways that do not infringe upon others. Respects others and their differences.

It is a wonderful life…but only if we make it so.

Filed Under: Metaphysical, To Be Human Tagged With: Christmas, Frank Capra, It's a Wonderful Life, Peace, Philosophy

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